I'm finding that being home has been so difficult.
Not just a few challenges every now and then but an everyday battle to accept His grace and share His joy.
I've found myself during those times when I'm all by myself with my journal and bible, writing and asking things like "Are you enough?"
The truth is, HE IS.
He has to be.
Life does feel a lot more difficult without having a youth ministry to focus on because I was into a routine and I loved it. It was hard but I was challenged and was blessed to be able to do all that He allowed me to do.
Things are shifting and that means readjusting and accepting the reality that life will never be the same.
I truthfully have not enjoyed living in America very much. It no longer feels like home.
I had a conversation with my Aunt a few days ago and she said something that reflected exactly what my heart was feeling, "Maybe it isn't suppose to feel like home anymore and it may never again. Through that shift, we keep moving and remain focused on His will."
It may be uncomfortable but I have simple comforts to be thankful for. Like family and friends and a great church.
I am learning that the feelings I'm facing are what are turning me back to His word and to foot of the Cross more frequently. Ultimately, if this is how His will in my life will be revealed then I will respond with obedience.
Responding with obedience results in arriving at a place where peace meets you.
Peace that surpasses even your greatest understanding.
Even when it's tough, press into Him.
How is He calling you to respond?
